That's my new drawer. I purchased it earlier on Saturday but they only managed to send it today.

It seems familiar. I swear I've seen it somewhere (maybe because its a standard design anyway).

Anyway...the post isnt that much about the drawer..

Its about something else that can be associated with it. I hate to recall the memory, but I know it will haunted me as long as this drawer stay here. But, to dump it seems pretty excessive (though it did crossed my mind)

Why does it have to happen at that particular time? Moreover, why does it have to happen at all??

I wish, like other things that I managed to tuck neatly into these drawers, I would manage to tuck in this unfortunate even too..

p/s : I wish I could brag a little (for the sake of justifying my own shopaholicness) about this new semi-luxury item of mine, but it just seems to0 depressing

idontwantthatuhavetochoose

Boredom hotness

sent from p1i (MMS) via mail-t0-blogger (aphasia address)

 
I think I had a post before about this movie ( and books). I first read the book which I borrowed from Husna. I had to finish it in a day ( it's so moving) that I had to read the last chapter in the darkness with only my bedside lamp turned on ( so that I wont disturb my roomate).

The movie (adapted from the novel) had been out few months back, but just yesterday I got the chance to watch it. And, just like the book, it's overwhelming.

One of the beloved story of our times...

Here's some quotes that I love (and keep playing in my head):

" For you, a thousand times over"

"There's a way to be good again"

For those living in my vicinity, you can get the movie from me. But I'd recommend you to read the book as well. Like any other adaptation, the reading is so much more fulfilling.

And here's the trailer for the movie :


And to you my friend:

I want you to know that someway somehow, in a distinct little part of it, the movie had my story in it. And yes, for you:

Its stependous. The coffee aroma, blended with the lavender fragrance intertwined into an enhancting dance that made its way into his nose.

Only that, he wonders whether such magical smell could still persist in the afterlife, or whether if it exist at all - the aroma- he means- of course.

Soon, he knew the aroma will be displaced. Once a top chemistry student, he certained that mixing these 2 detergents would release a toxic combustion. One that can be lethatl enough once it dissipate into the bloodstream.

And he twisted open the bottle cap. The liquid swirl together into the plunged sink, releasing a hissing sound, and the mist oozed upwards into a twirling emptiness.

As he took a deep breath, wishing a warm and easy farewel, moments from his life flash in front of his eyes. Yet, in its entire peculiarity, it stops. Exactly at the spot where the mind crawls into a scene, a person, a subject - you.

Second inhalation. The tapwater flows continously, as it rhymes with every slowing of his heart beat. He grasp his hand, catching for something that he himself is uncertain of.

Just before the windpipe close, cutting the essential airflow into the lungs, a wonder happened.

You called.

Glimpsing at the caller ID on his mobile, he saw your name. Hand shaking, he pressed the answer button, and stop breathing.

"Hello" you said, casually

"Hi". he replied. And, as if controlled by a distant wisdom, he unplunged the sink, and soon, the tapwater carried away the lethal fluid. Away, out of his life.

"How you doin'?, I thought we could hit a movie or somethin'..u ok there bud? U seems irregularly irregular, thee hehe " you said

"I AM fine. I wasnt earlier, but I AM now..I really do. Thanks for calling"

And he sunk onto the bathroom floor, grasping the phone, knowing at the other end, there's YOU.

I got a painful lump in my nasopharynx (see pic to decode it) and a merciless sore throat, combined with everlasting headache and subfebrile temperature which felt like it hadnt yet stop soaring up.

Yes. in a short word, I got the flu.

And no, flu is not a simple disease that can be easily overlooked. Call me hypochondriac, but more people is getting serious complications from flu, and even death, thanks to all the members of ignorant public community out there who prescribe antibiotics for this virally-caused disease

Especially in the landlocked land of Volgograd, where natural vitamin source (ie fresh fruits, greens, and citrus) is rarely available, or at least only the rich can afford it, we the medium-class community members are more prone to be contracted by this disease. Yes, there's the supplemental vitamin I know, but I vaguely doubt that those multivitamin tablets is superior to what mother nature had offered us.

anyway, enough bashing around...I am now bed-ridden ( yup, just like when I am healthy), and can persuade myself away from this bed to answer the call of nature (ie pee pee). I drank too much fluid and soup and broth and what-not to overcome my sore throat, and so, more fluid need to be excreted out. You poor little kidney... :~(

and uh, yes, there's the music..that keep me from fiddling my mind too much. Current "sick playlist" include Feist, JUNO OST, and Great Lake Swimmers.

on a totally different subject :
I miss your coffee :(

ok, so thats a made-up Russian title I made which should mean " the last unexpected, saki-baki, winter before we made it into spring"

I am no good in rambling about weather,..so here's two pic I managed to take during those two days of unexpected-heavy-snowdrops-in-the-middle-of-early-spring...

It's beautiful, sunshine and snow intertwined together, like a sonata of dancing diamond....but dont be misguided...this beautiful lane is no other than the one leading to the main entrance of Oncology Centre of Volgograd.. (oncology = science of tumor, cancer, and all things bad n incurable, kidding)

yes...cancer....it kills .... :(

 

notes : this is my elongated, elaborated,silly answer to the question I got earlier from a friend of mine "WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MUSLIM WOMEN IN VOLGOGRAD?", in consequence of Women's Day celebrated here in the oncoming 8th of March


Tarian buat Muslimah
(angelus izika, Conductive Aphasia, March 6 2008)

Kerana bila di depanmu,
mulut ini terkunci membisu,
Lalu ku biar sahaja jari ini menari,
Melirik kata dari sanubari,

Dingin sejuk desa Volgo ini,
Tanah membeku dan bayu yang mati,
Dan kalian muncul sambil bertatih
Meredup pandang mata yang selamanya pedih

Banggalah dengan hijabmu,
Kerana kau srikandi di bumi,
Banggalah dengan akhlakmu,
Kerana itulah yang paling murni,

Sinar matamu menghiasi,
Gelak tawamu menghibur,
Tabah mu menginspirasi,
Ikhlasmu tak terkubur

Ku yakin air mata bukan tandanya lemah,
Tapi erti kasihmu yang tak sudah,
Dan senyum misteri mu bukan menggoda,
Tapi tanda akhlak tidak ternoda

Kalau kasih yang kau cari,
Pastikan kau cari cinta yang hakiki,
Yang memimpin dirimu menuju Ilahi,
Yang mengharumi dirimu dengan raihan Firdausi

Dan jika teman hidup yang kau risaukan,
Serahkan semuanya pada Tuhan,
Kerana takdir-Nya tak pernah kejam,
Dan bahagia hamba-Nya, tak pernah dilupakan

Tari jari ini mungkin tak semulia,
Cuma ku doakan kalian bahagia,
Di samping Dia yang kau cintai,
Di pintu syurga yang harum mewangi...

So, neemo tagged me for this little silly games where we have to list down our 5 most visited links, and then to tag another 5 person to do the same silly things..so that in the end we all can share this silly little links...

well, I'm silly enough to join in .. :P

o, here's my 5 most favorites links:-

1 ) MY GMAIL - sorry I know u all cant share my account. But what I am trying to say is that, gmail is simply the best web-server mail in the world. With unlimited storage (suits for me bcoz I am too lazy to empty my mailbox), search mail features, and many2 more... www.gmail.com

2) FRIENDSTER - (I know, lame....)

3) BLOGSPOT - Mine (ok, thats a little self-fulfilling), Neemo's, then rearrange's, then maddie's...then..uh, well, any one I happen to bump into, and then marks them with my RSS

4) WIKIPEDIA - (yeah, we medstew are geeks...and that IS special,...sorry, sucks to be you :D) ~ uh kejinya2...

5) I am suppose to put up NEW ENGLAND JOURNAL OF MEDICINE , but since it sounds too lame, even for me...and too geeky, yup, even for me, so I decided to go with the more humane-like link, namely....YOUTUBE...hehehehehe

so , I'm tagging :-
, yes...that's you...no, dont run away, I got your IP stored ...hehehhe